Stormy So, there’s a hella thunderstorm out right now and here I am in my room. Counting. If I just keep…
December 14, 2021
Crying all the time
“D, we gotta go!” my mom calls out. I’m still in bed. No desire to leave.
“D, come on!” I hear footsteps close in. Bedroom door open. “It’s your grandma’s 70th birthday.” She hurries to my closet. I roll out of bed. Grab my jeans from the floor. My hoodie from the floor.
“No way, kid.” She pulls a yellow dress over my head. “Jesus, when did you get so skinny?” she pulls the dress down. It hangs, like the unspoken words between us. “Go wash up and meet me downstairs.”
I drag my fingers through my unwashed hair. Pop a mint in my mouth. Take each step as though it was my first. Slow. I don’t want to go to Grandma’s party. I don’t want to see them all stare at my ugliness. Whisper about my failings. I drop onto the bottom step. Lean my head against the wall. And cry.
What is it?
A mood disorder that makes you feel overwhelmingly low or sad, unable to lift your mood, and can effect how you act and think.
How do I know?
Depression by the numbers:
What could put me at risk for depression?
What’s the big deal?
What can I do right now?
Musical notes: Studies have shown that music-based therapy, when added to other treatments, can help people suffering from depression by offering emotional relief and increasing self-awareness.
Cultural strategy: Some cultures describe symptoms of depression with words not commonly used in Western countries, such as heartache or tiredness, or as physical pain. If you are interested in cross-cultural approaches to treatment for depression, talk to a doctor about incorporating cultural strategies to help you cope.
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