Stormy So, there’s a hella thunderstorm out right now and here I am in my room. Counting. If I just keep…
December 14, 2021
Screaming for ice cream
We pull into the ice cream parlour parking lot. I throw up in the front seat of Dad’s car.
“Geez, kid. If you were feeling sick, we didn’t have to come,” he smiles reassuringly. “I’ll be back in a sec.” He runs into the ice-cream parlour. I shiver. I sweat. I remember. She was so nice. She just wanted to help. Took me out for ice cream. Lots of ice cream. In her car. In her car. Always in her car. She understood about my mom’s leaving. She wanted to help. In her car. Behind the ice-cream parlour. Where no one could see her. Touching me. Undressing me. In her car.
The car door opens. I jump. I scream.
“Hey, just going to do away with this cup,” Dad says, scooping the mess with a plastic purple spoon into an ice cream cup. He cleans the mess. But I still feel dirty. Always feel dirty and sick in the parking lot of the ice cream parlour.
What is it?
Physical, physiological, emotional and/or social reactions to a traumatic or terrifying event that either happened to you or a loved one, or that you saw. PTSD affects your day-to-day life, relationships, mood, sleep, memory and more. It can start well after the traumatic event, even years later.
How do I know?
PTSD by the numbers
Why would I have PTSD?
You may have had exposure to or experienced a traumatic event such as:
What’s the big deal?
What can I do?
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For more information:
National Child Traumatic Stress Network